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01
WAVES OF BLACK

[J. Koukonen]

 

 

the truth we all hide from

when trapdoor swings out from 

beneath your feet you'll find the

bottomless free fall 

it's nothing superior

we're only inferior

come hell or high water

there is the greed for more

 

so tempted to close our eyes

pretend that we’re safe and sound

but when we are lost 

there is no one left for the search of us

 

THIS IS THE UNIVERSE NOT MADE FOR ME

AND THIS IS THE UNIVERSE, NOT MADE FOR YOU

WE ARE THE PARADOX, WE CAN'T LIVE FOREVER

IN THE WAVES OF BLACK

WHERE THE DEAD WHALES CAN’T WAVE BACK

 

it's a system of balance

we are disguise of reality

it's a conflict and health

we are friends, we are enemies

 

but every time I take a look at us

it’s like the wisdom is forbidden in us

we are no reason of creation

but a humiliation

 

 

 


02

THE UNFINISHED STORY

[J. Koukonen]

 

I am running but I don't know

what is the price or the way to go

change me, to find the leak in my soul 

my system, the blood is draining in

come on, down here, align with me

where every moment is dead to me

 

I have come a long way

fought through this, insecure

tears have drawn this road paved 

and stacked with the hearts and shades

 

 

BRAND NEW HAVEN, HOLD ME IN YOUR HELL

OH YOU CAN'T KILL THESE DREAMS INSIDE OF ME

MAYBE ALL WE HAVE IS PART OF THE GLORY

THE UNFINISHED STORY WITH NO END

 

with blue eyes staring brand new sky of silver lines

forever I now prevail

 

maybe we could turn this into heaven

maybe we could leave out all hell

now please tell me it was worth the pain

and patch me up from this dead man's opera

03

DEVOURER

[J. Koukonen]

 

 

stuck inside a downward spiral

out of all this mental disgrace

you're something more

follow me I'll show you the early grave

like a portrait for the diseased 

paint the picture of me

 

sitting on a throne of grace

I do not beat my own heart

the only thing here not so vague

we can not live forever

if you seek for your salvation

all you have is a tribulation

just hold onto your fucking self

 

WE DON'T EVEN KNOW OURSELVES

THE MIRRORS SHOW NO PERMANENCE

OUR HOUSE IS TURNING INTO GRAVE SO

WE CLOSE THE CURTAINS FOR THE CHANGE

 

all vague, are we awake 

when you look back asking begging for more

I'm sure you knew that it’s all gone wrong

when you are lost and only begging for hope

I'm sure you'll comfort from

starting a fight, a doom in a mind

whatever you do keep begging the skies like

our humans with no humanity

 

when you look up asking are we alone

I'm sure you know that it's not too far

when you are lost and only begging for rope

I'm sure you'll comfort from

keeping it tight, the vision in sight

whatever you do, keep begging the lies might

give a shit about the reckoning

 

we hide the certain 

our hearts are the countdown clocks

just clicking into being done

our minds are the counters of this 

loneliness the death will devour

 

 

04

ALYSIA 

[J. Hyvönen]

 

 

did you hear the rumble of a morning rain  

did I always stay alone awake all in vain

do you still wait there for me

as I will 'till the end of our days

 

I'm not sure I feel all sane

I lack this bitter but it's all the same

there's not much left from me

but the words of this serenade

 

 

DO YOU REMEMBER US THE WAY I DO 

DID YOU SEE THE BEAUTY THE WAY I SAW IN YOU

TASTE OF LAST KISS, THE PROMISE, WAS IT BITTER

I'M SURE YOU KNEW, WE HAD IT ALL

WE HAVE IT ALL, AND WE ALWAYS WILL

 

 

with coldest heart that's buried deep

my last words, in voiceless sound of sleep

I've done, given all my everything

could you kill the grief and turn this into sweet relief

until my last inhale 

we'll breathe the same air

as we will dance 

this one last serenade

 

 

take my hand and hold on to me

as we face the last break of dawn

together we drift to the unknown

hold my hand in this one last serenade

 

 

did we run into the hearts of the great unknown

did we ever choose to choke in fire

did we only hide the truth in the lies and silence

take my hand, hold on to me

as we face the sweet relief

 

 

05

MY ROUTE  

[J. Koukonen]

this is my route I've started with loneliness

it's all, well, unknown for the most

with all these bumps as deep as truth that hurts

twisted with endless turns where 

I feel so blindfolded

all dark, every turn

 

I HAD A DREAM OF WAKING UP

FROM ALL THIS STORED IN ME, GONE, UNDONE

I HAVE NO ANSWERS, I HAVE NO LULLABIES

CAN WE JUST PRETEND, EVERYTHING IS FINE

 

my route

I've drawn when hopeless

it's all, well, un-driven for most

with all these wounds as deep as truth that burns

twisted with endless turns where

I, I had a dream of waking up

all this stored in me all gone undone

all dark, every way

 

I HAD A DREAM, A DREAM OF WAKING UP

ALL STORED IN ME, GONE AND UNDONE

I HAVE NO ANSWERS, I HAVE NO LULLABIES

CAN WE JUST PRETEND, THIS ONE TIME 

EVERYTHING IS AND WILL BE  FINE

 

run, route that I've shown

god I'm still faint

gas, brake, stuck in my throat

you feel so slow

could you still show me the way back my broken road

now, will you take me home

 

on my route

paved with all my tears, slippery for the most

with all this love as deep as daggers turn

twisted with endless turns where

I feel so unguided

all dark, never learn

 

I HAD A DREAM OF WAKING UP

FROM ALL THIS STORED IN ME GONE, UNDONE

I HAVE NO ANSWERS, I HAVE NO LULLABIES

CAN WE JUST PRETEND, CAN WE JUST PRETEND

IN A DREAM OF WAKING UP, ALL GONE

DEAD MEMORIES STORED IN ME, ALL GONE

IT'S ONLY METAPHORS, I HAVE NO LULLABIES 

AND NOTHING'S BROKEN THIS TIME

 

 

06

PIECES

[J. Koukonen]

 

all hearts in a million pieces

which is the part we're supposed to follow

does it change for you, ever

do it again, do it again for me

filling skies with the false denial

what a waste of parallel desire

oh you ever, whoever you choose

turn this into me

 

YOU WERE MY SUN, YOU WERE MY

EVERY STEP IN THE DARKEST STORY

CAME TO AN END WITH NONE OF THE GLORY

MY ANGELCRUSH

 

it's hard to step back from this constant fall

all in my weakness had me carry on

these vilest secrets, there's no more regrets

they came for me and there was no one left to 

speak for me, crush my dreams

 

raise your holy fucking grails for

judgement of the day as you set 

the sores for our love

 

to be the hunter, I've been the hunted

to fight the wars I've given away my victories

to be the greatest, I've beaten the traitor

to feel like royal I've surely been on my knees

crawling in my dreams

 

so raise your holy fucking grails for

judgement of the day as you set the sores 

for our love

 

I've been hoping for deliverance

waiting for the miracle

to restore

 

now all yours, my form of breaking

reformed my shadow endless mistakes deep in

all yours, fought through my aching

we fought this sorrow

endless, the stakes wither

 

07

ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE  

[J. Koukonen]

 

right here in the end of my rope

little lost in my mind, little gone

I left my heavens, left my hells

because your world got it all wrong 

 

so much I've been dreaming

as much I've seen the unseen

in my mind, in my head

I think I know myself too well

 

but you still cannot seem to know the difference

your heroes wear capes, it's pushing me away from you all

I can't see the reasons you've got so far

 

IF THIS IS THE LIFE THAT YOU WANTED

LET THE RAIN POUR DOWN RIGHT HERE

IF I WAS THE STEP WHERE YOU STUMBLED
ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE 

YOUR OWN EYES - SAVE YOURSELF

YOUR OWN LIFE  - SAVE YOURSELF

THE LIFE OF ALL SO BROKEN

CAN YOU STAND FOR ALL THAT YOU BELIEVE

 

pushed me into this, I know myself too well

you pulled me into this, just spare me

ask and you shall receive

 

the god ends here

don't push me too far

there is the circle of you traitors 

I know your hearts bleed fear

as I finally get you out of heaven to visit our hell

 

but you still cannot seem to know the difference

and all of your gripe is stinking, stay away from me now

I can't see but reasons you lack so far

 

"from swerve of shore to bend of bay"

because the change is here to stay

so built the lies on your salvation

this is my last compulsion for

your own eyes - save yourself

your own life - save yourself

the life of oh so broken

the god ends here

 

 

08

AUGUST

[J. Koukonen]

 

goodbye, my sunshine, my love

 

such a trait

you rant us there's no right to choose

spilled the blood, took a stain in your own book

across the pages, over the edges

you know the world could do without you

we all know there was more than this

you can't deny you didn't know all that

when pushing someone to the edge

is oppression, a decision made

 

it's easy for you to say

you know how some people breathe no more

try to emphasise, feels so mesmerised

we know how things can go all so wrong

 

pray pray, your emptiness is despicable

paralysed in your mind

pushed August away and brought in the fall

"just ”fuck y’all”

 

AS WE FACED THE FINAL SUNRISE

NEVER KNEW THIS WAS THE LAST 

GOODBYE MY SUNSHINE, MY LOVE

GIVEN IT ALL, A HURRICANE 

ALWAYS PART OF THE HISTORY

SO GOODBYE MY SUNSHINE, MY LOVE

 

let it sink in deep

nothing will ever compare 

against the truth the world does not have your back

 

there's one new pair of angel wings in heaven

so goodbye, my sunshine, my love

"just ”fuck y’all”

 

 

09

ON MY THRONE

[J. Koukonen]

 

pouring hours to silence

cannot find my throne

what did you bring for my doom

sleep of a hurricane

thanks for asking all is fine

it's just the sound of a time in me

new dawn will bring new flood

 

I never meant to force my dreams

can't push my heart aside

always painting my mind

with you, new dawn in sight

roses and droseras

cards closer to my chest

as I am waiting for you

to show the real numbers

 

take a bullet, bullet, bullet to my fucking head

so much wasted time on those bridges

all really to see the day 

there's a pretender on my throne

left behind me

 

TAKE THIS CROWN, I FALL RIGHT HERE

BUT DON'T CLAIM WE WERE NEVER ONE AND WHOLE

IF THAT'S ALL SHE WROTE 

FORGIVE MY LACK OF GRACE

FORGIVE MY LACK OF FAITH

FORGIVE MY LACK OF

I WISH THAT I COULD SAY

NOW THIS WAS MEANT TO BE

 

the cold is real, guess that's all I know

the scars I feel, guess they will not go

embracing time as I fall in life

dethrone my presence

decrown my heart instead

'cuz no more, no long

thorns feel none if life's so fucking cheap

 

there's a pretender on my throne

I take a bullet, bullet, bullet to my fucking head

whenever you can not run away with me

in the end of our road    

you'll put the crown back on my throne

10

WHITE FEATHER

[J. Hyvönen]

counted my failures

mistakes I've made

broken promises

times I've lost my faith

all those empty words

made no sense to me 

staring down the edge I see not many enemies

 

IT'S GETTING HARDER AND HARDER TO BREATHE

WILL I KEEP MY HEAD ON THE SURFACE

AS I AM WAITING FOR THE PIECES FALL IN

JUST TO FIND A LITTLE PURPOSE

 

to be the one and be the only

to wear this crown of a true facade

I am the one and I'm the only

to stay in the deepest and the darkest shades when you're gone

 

we will stick to this together

whenever you will see the white feather

and I will treat you like a love without a fade

 

nothing will ever compare

not even close to you - my love

no one will ever make a difference like you do

but you know I just have to let you go now

 

and it's slowly getting harder and harder to see

I am waiting for the pieces to fall in free

where we will always walk together 

you will see the white feather

it's getting harder and harder to breathe 

wont keep my head on the surface

it's getting harder and harder to feel

this will be my white feather

TRACK BY TRACK

 

01 WAVES OF BLACK - lyrics by Koukonen

 

I really love science. It's amazing what human beings can, and have been able to create and achieve with it during our short presence here. Unfortunately I'm also very frustrated at the same time about the fact how we keep everything so self-evident, taken for granted, and reciprocally keep destroying our home on the very inferior levels of life. The egocentric thinking will not change us to better by any means. You and me, we are just matter after all and no one is going to save us when it's too late. It's a walk of shame for humanity, subconsciously thinking the universe is here for us and because of us. "This is the universe not made for me, and this is the universe not made for you".

 

02 THE UNFINISHED STORY - lyrics by Koukonen

 

"This is a song where I was highly involved in the instrumental pre-production with Antti, so it turned out to become a special song for me personally. From the very beginning, we decided to keep this one low on tempo, high on melancholy, but also as "hammer" as possible at the same time. Lyrically the song is about a battle and balance between your comfort and discomfort zones. It's about the rollercoaster of getting closer to giving up and finding the strength from yourself to overcome the situation rising back to your feet. After all, as far as we've come, and since we're not done, it's an unfinished story."

 

 

03 DEVOURER - lyrics Koukonen

 

"Life is a really beautiful thing. I think we all should respect the fact we have one, and that you have the knowledge and wisdom to process all the wonders and information you will encounter during it. Regarding this, I personally just can't justify all the religious thinking and madness in the middle of it, and the consequences we've had in the history of mankind. All the shit we still face everyday. I mean it's 21st century. Maybe it's finally time to go rational, take a look in the mirror and try to acknowledge yourself first, instead of just turning into this ultimate brainwashed idiot for a systematic guidance. I just need to get this type of shit out sometimes and here you have it in one of the most aggressive songs from Godsend."

 

 

04 ALYSIA - lyrics by Hyvönen

 

“Alysia" continues the story of never ending love that "Times We Had" started on previous album. Main theme of the song is lyrically the same, but now tables have slightly turned and love has changed in to a distant memory of that feeling. From the helpless lines of the song you can taste the bitter disappointment: once praised, never ending connection is not anymore something to hold on, but letting go is even more hurting. The melancholic atmosphere of the song go hand in hand with the melancholic lyrics: the end is slowly becoming real, but maybe there is still time for the one last serenade?

 

05 MY ROUTE - lyrics by Koukonen

 

Maybe my personal favourite on the album. We've all had our own routes in our lives and if you ever wish you could start something all over from the beginning, then you know what I mean here with the chorus. Because if you ask me, this "I would never change a thing"-thinking is the biggest bullshit ever. Life is up's and downs, twists and turns, good and bad from better to worse and we all make mistakes. Even we always don't have the answers, we always find the way. This was the last song I did the vocals for and it has a little different approach lyrically, but I think this is something everyone can easily relate. My Route was originally recorded as a bonus track and was not suppose to be on the album, but it turned out to become such a strong song we couldn't leave it out.

 

06 PIECES - lyrics by Koukonen

 

"Pieces" is a song where love and destruction walk hand in hand. It's somewhat of a sum-up of the feelings and aftermath focused on dealing with loss. I struggled a lot with this song when trying to come up with the vocal arrangements and after all just decided to go with a really straight-forward lyrical mind-flow on the fly. It's a song that has slowly grown bigger and better and a lot of people also seem to dig it. I think it's bit of a dark horse on the album. I also absolutely love the instrumental middle-section of the song and I think this one should work very well in the setlist when played live.

 

 

07 ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE - lyrics by Koukonen

 

I talked about science and rational thinking earlier with the previous songs and "Ask And You Shall Receive" basically maintains this very same approach lyrically. The message in summon is; if you ask for your own stupidity, you shall receive one. Of course I am no one to tell how to live your life and this one is also covered in lyrics, but sometimes it amazes me how narrow-minded the humanity can be. In my books, resisting the change simply doesn't take us anywhere. Ask And You Shall Receive was the very first song on the record I did the vocals for back in the days.

 

 

08 AUGUST - lyrics by Koukonen

 

"August" is a song about controversial example of bullying that can have the ultimate consequences. I will not go into details here but following the events and the aftermath of all this made me feel disgusted. We should not forget there is always a responsibility with running our mouths, no matter how strict ones opinions may be.

09 ON MY THRONE - lyrics by Koukonen

"On My Throne" is the mental playground of confusing feelings in the aftermath of love, and thematically actually pretty close to our song "Valkyrie" from the album "Where the Oceans Burn". It's really hard for me to imagine how other people really feel, but at least I've been through some fairly strong feelings and emotions in my past when it comes to this subject. There is some fascinating beauty in letting go of your strength, understanding yourself well enough in the circumstances and coming out as a better and stronger person in the end; being the king of your own emotions.

 

10 WHITE FEATHER - lyrics by Hyvönen

I have always been interested in last words and thoughts that people go through before the most ultimate decision in life. What would be your final statement if you were committing a suicide? White Feather" tries to interpret the emotion and moment when one sees no chance to go on anymore and the only solution is letting go forever. Even though the lyrics are hopeless and lines speak about disappointments and overwhelming emptiness in life, the main theme of the song in the end is just a request for understanding and forgiveness. The lesson learned here is, that even when someone has lost the meaning in life, the others should find it through the loss. The ones we have lost, will live make us understand the worth of life and just like white feathers, they will guide us forever.

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