01
WAVES OF BLACK
[J. Koukonen]
the truth we all hide from
when trapdoor swings out from
beneath your feet you'll find the
bottomless free fall
it's nothing superior
we're only inferior
come hell or high water
there is the greed for more
so tempted to close our eyes
pretend that we’re safe and sound
but when we are lost
there is no one left for the search of us
THIS IS THE UNIVERSE NOT MADE FOR ME
AND THIS IS THE UNIVERSE, NOT MADE FOR YOU
WE ARE THE PARADOX, WE CAN'T LIVE FOREVER
IN THE WAVES OF BLACK
WHERE THE DEAD WHALES CAN’T WAVE BACK
it's a system of balance
we are disguise of reality
it's a conflict and health
we are friends, we are enemies
but every time I take a look at us
it’s like the wisdom is forbidden in us
we are no reason of creation
but a humiliation
02
THE UNFINISHED STORY
[J. Koukonen]
I am running but I don't know
what is the price or the way to go
change me, to find the leak in my soul
my system, the blood is draining in
come on, down here, align with me
where every moment is dead to me
I have come a long way
fought through this, insecure
tears have drawn this road paved
and stacked with the hearts and shades
BRAND NEW HAVEN, HOLD ME IN YOUR HELL
OH YOU CAN'T KILL THESE DREAMS INSIDE OF ME
MAYBE ALL WE HAVE IS PART OF THE GLORY
THE UNFINISHED STORY WITH NO END
with blue eyes staring brand new sky of silver lines
forever I now prevail
maybe we could turn this into heaven
maybe we could leave out all hell
now please tell me it was worth the pain
and patch me up from this dead man's opera
03
DEVOURER
[J. Koukonen]
stuck inside a downward spiral
out of all this mental disgrace
you're something more
follow me I'll show you the early grave
like a portrait for the diseased
paint the picture of me
sitting on a throne of grace
I do not beat my own heart
the only thing here not so vague
we can not live forever
if you seek for your salvation
all you have is a tribulation
just hold onto your fucking self
WE DON'T EVEN KNOW OURSELVES
THE MIRRORS SHOW NO PERMANENCE
OUR HOUSE IS TURNING INTO GRAVE SO
WE CLOSE THE CURTAINS FOR THE CHANGE
all vague, are we awake
when you look back asking begging for more
I'm sure you knew that it’s all gone wrong
when you are lost and only begging for hope
I'm sure you'll comfort from
starting a fight, a doom in a mind
whatever you do keep begging the skies like
our humans with no humanity
when you look up asking are we alone
I'm sure you know that it's not too far
when you are lost and only begging for rope
I'm sure you'll comfort from
keeping it tight, the vision in sight
whatever you do, keep begging the lies might
give a shit about the reckoning
we hide the certain
our hearts are the countdown clocks
just clicking into being done
our minds are the counters of this
loneliness the death will devour
04
ALYSIA
[J. Hyvönen]
did you hear the rumble of a morning rain
did I always stay alone awake all in vain
do you still wait there for me
as I will 'till the end of our days
I'm not sure I feel all sane
I lack this bitter but it's all the same
there's not much left from me
but the words of this serenade
DO YOU REMEMBER US THE WAY I DO
DID YOU SEE THE BEAUTY THE WAY I SAW IN YOU
TASTE OF LAST KISS, THE PROMISE, WAS IT BITTER
I'M SURE YOU KNEW, WE HAD IT ALL
WE HAVE IT ALL, AND WE ALWAYS WILL
with coldest heart that's buried deep
my last words, in voiceless sound of sleep
I've done, given all my everything
could you kill the grief and turn this into sweet relief
until my last inhale
we'll breathe the same air
as we will dance
this one last serenade
take my hand and hold on to me
as we face the last break of dawn
together we drift to the unknown
hold my hand in this one last serenade
did we run into the hearts of the great unknown
did we ever choose to choke in fire
did we only hide the truth in the lies and silence
take my hand, hold on to me
as we face the sweet relief
05
MY ROUTE
[J. Koukonen]
this is my route I've started with loneliness
it's all, well, unknown for the most
with all these bumps as deep as truth that hurts
twisted with endless turns where
I feel so blindfolded
all dark, every turn
I HAD A DREAM OF WAKING UP
FROM ALL THIS STORED IN ME, GONE, UNDONE
I HAVE NO ANSWERS, I HAVE NO LULLABIES
CAN WE JUST PRETEND, EVERYTHING IS FINE
my route
I've drawn when hopeless
it's all, well, un-driven for most
with all these wounds as deep as truth that burns
twisted with endless turns where
I, I had a dream of waking up
all this stored in me all gone undone
all dark, every way
I HAD A DREAM, A DREAM OF WAKING UP
ALL STORED IN ME, GONE AND UNDONE
I HAVE NO ANSWERS, I HAVE NO LULLABIES
CAN WE JUST PRETEND, THIS ONE TIME
EVERYTHING IS AND WILL BE FINE
run, route that I've shown
god I'm still faint
gas, brake, stuck in my throat
you feel so slow
could you still show me the way back my broken road
now, will you take me home
on my route
paved with all my tears, slippery for the most
with all this love as deep as daggers turn
twisted with endless turns where
I feel so unguided
all dark, never learn
I HAD A DREAM OF WAKING UP
FROM ALL THIS STORED IN ME GONE, UNDONE
I HAVE NO ANSWERS, I HAVE NO LULLABIES
CAN WE JUST PRETEND, CAN WE JUST PRETEND
IN A DREAM OF WAKING UP, ALL GONE
DEAD MEMORIES STORED IN ME, ALL GONE
IT'S ONLY METAPHORS, I HAVE NO LULLABIES
AND NOTHING'S BROKEN THIS TIME
06
PIECES
[J. Koukonen]
all hearts in a million pieces
which is the part we're supposed to follow
does it change for you, ever
do it again, do it again for me
filling skies with the false denial
what a waste of parallel desire
oh you ever, whoever you choose
turn this into me
YOU WERE MY SUN, YOU WERE MY
EVERY STEP IN THE DARKEST STORY
CAME TO AN END WITH NONE OF THE GLORY
MY ANGELCRUSH
it's hard to step back from this constant fall
all in my weakness had me carry on
these vilest secrets, there's no more regrets
they came for me and there was no one left to
speak for me, crush my dreams
raise your holy fucking grails for
judgement of the day as you set
the sores for our love
to be the hunter, I've been the hunted
to fight the wars I've given away my victories
to be the greatest, I've beaten the traitor
to feel like royal I've surely been on my knees
crawling in my dreams
so raise your holy fucking grails for
judgement of the day as you set the sores
for our love
I've been hoping for deliverance
waiting for the miracle
to restore
now all yours, my form of breaking
reformed my shadow endless mistakes deep in
all yours, fought through my aching
we fought this sorrow
endless, the stakes wither
07
ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE
[J. Koukonen]
right here in the end of my rope
little lost in my mind, little gone
I left my heavens, left my hells
because your world got it all wrong
so much I've been dreaming
as much I've seen the unseen
in my mind, in my head
I think I know myself too well
but you still cannot seem to know the difference
your heroes wear capes, it's pushing me away from you all
I can't see the reasons you've got so far
IF THIS IS THE LIFE THAT YOU WANTED
LET THE RAIN POUR DOWN RIGHT HERE
IF I WAS THE STEP WHERE YOU STUMBLED
ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE
YOUR OWN EYES - SAVE YOURSELF
YOUR OWN LIFE - SAVE YOURSELF
THE LIFE OF ALL SO BROKEN
CAN YOU STAND FOR ALL THAT YOU BELIEVE
pushed me into this, I know myself too well
you pulled me into this, just spare me
ask and you shall receive
the god ends here
don't push me too far
there is the circle of you traitors
I know your hearts bleed fear
as I finally get you out of heaven to visit our hell
but you still cannot seem to know the difference
and all of your gripe is stinking, stay away from me now
I can't see but reasons you lack so far
"from swerve of shore to bend of bay"
because the change is here to stay
so built the lies on your salvation
this is my last compulsion for
your own eyes - save yourself
your own life - save yourself
the life of oh so broken
the god ends here
08
AUGUST
[J. Koukonen]
goodbye, my sunshine, my love
such a trait
you rant us there's no right to choose
spilled the blood, took a stain in your own book
across the pages, over the edges
you know the world could do without you
we all know there was more than this
you can't deny you didn't know all that
when pushing someone to the edge
is oppression, a decision made
it's easy for you to say
you know how some people breathe no more
try to emphasise, feels so mesmerised
we know how things can go all so wrong
pray pray, your emptiness is despicable
paralysed in your mind
pushed August away and brought in the fall
"just ”fuck y’all”
AS WE FACED THE FINAL SUNRISE
NEVER KNEW THIS WAS THE LAST
GOODBYE MY SUNSHINE, MY LOVE
GIVEN IT ALL, A HURRICANE
ALWAYS PART OF THE HISTORY
SO GOODBYE MY SUNSHINE, MY LOVE
let it sink in deep
nothing will ever compare
against the truth the world does not have your back
there's one new pair of angel wings in heaven
so goodbye, my sunshine, my love
"just ”fuck y’all”
09
ON MY THRONE
[J. Koukonen]
pouring hours to silence
cannot find my throne
what did you bring for my doom
sleep of a hurricane
thanks for asking all is fine
it's just the sound of a time in me
new dawn will bring new flood
I never meant to force my dreams
can't push my heart aside
always painting my mind
with you, new dawn in sight
roses and droseras
cards closer to my chest
as I am waiting for you
to show the real numbers
take a bullet, bullet, bullet to my fucking head
so much wasted time on those bridges
all really to see the day
there's a pretender on my throne
left behind me
TAKE THIS CROWN, I FALL RIGHT HERE
BUT DON'T CLAIM WE WERE NEVER ONE AND WHOLE
IF THAT'S ALL SHE WROTE
FORGIVE MY LACK OF GRACE
FORGIVE MY LACK OF FAITH
FORGIVE MY LACK OF
I WISH THAT I COULD SAY
NOW THIS WAS MEANT TO BE
the cold is real, guess that's all I know
the scars I feel, guess they will not go
embracing time as I fall in life
dethrone my presence
decrown my heart instead
'cuz no more, no long
thorns feel none if life's so fucking cheap
there's a pretender on my throne
I take a bullet, bullet, bullet to my fucking head
whenever you can not run away with me
in the end of our road
you'll put the crown back on my throne
10
WHITE FEATHER
[J. Hyvönen]
counted my failures
mistakes I've made
broken promises
times I've lost my faith
all those empty words
made no sense to me
staring down the edge I see not many enemies
IT'S GETTING HARDER AND HARDER TO BREATHE
WILL I KEEP MY HEAD ON THE SURFACE
AS I AM WAITING FOR THE PIECES FALL IN
JUST TO FIND A LITTLE PURPOSE
to be the one and be the only
to wear this crown of a true facade
I am the one and I'm the only
to stay in the deepest and the darkest shades when you're gone
we will stick to this together
whenever you will see the white feather
and I will treat you like a love without a fade
nothing will ever compare
not even close to you - my love
no one will ever make a difference like you do
but you know I just have to let you go now
and it's slowly getting harder and harder to see
I am waiting for the pieces to fall in free
where we will always walk together
you will see the white feather
it's getting harder and harder to breathe
wont keep my head on the surface
it's getting harder and harder to feel
this will be my white feather
TRACK BY TRACK
01 WAVES OF BLACK - lyrics by Koukonen
I really love science. It's amazing what human beings can, and have been able to create and achieve with it during our short presence here. Unfortunately I'm also very frustrated at the same time about the fact how we keep everything so self-evident, taken for granted, and reciprocally keep destroying our home on the very inferior levels of life. The egocentric thinking will not change us to better by any means. You and me, we are just matter after all and no one is going to save us when it's too late. It's a walk of shame for humanity, subconsciously thinking the universe is here for us and because of us. "This is the universe not made for me, and this is the universe not made for you".
02 THE UNFINISHED STORY - lyrics by Koukonen
"This is a song where I was highly involved in the instrumental pre-production with Antti, so it turned out to become a special song for me personally. From the very beginning, we decided to keep this one low on tempo, high on melancholy, but also as "hammer" as possible at the same time. Lyrically the song is about a battle and balance between your comfort and discomfort zones. It's about the rollercoaster of getting closer to giving up and finding the strength from yourself to overcome the situation rising back to your feet. After all, as far as we've come, and since we're not done, it's an unfinished story."
03 DEVOURER - lyrics Koukonen
"Life is a really beautiful thing. I think we all should respect the fact we have one, and that you have the knowledge and wisdom to process all the wonders and information you will encounter during it. Regarding this, I personally just can't justify all the religious thinking and madness in the middle of it, and the consequences we've had in the history of mankind. All the shit we still face everyday. I mean it's 21st century. Maybe it's finally time to go rational, take a look in the mirror and try to acknowledge yourself first, instead of just turning into this ultimate brainwashed idiot for a systematic guidance. I just need to get this type of shit out sometimes and here you have it in one of the most aggressive songs from Godsend."
04 ALYSIA - lyrics by Hyvönen
“Alysia" continues the story of never ending love that "Times We Had" started on previous album. Main theme of the song is lyrically the same, but now tables have slightly turned and love has changed in to a distant memory of that feeling. From the helpless lines of the song you can taste the bitter disappointment: once praised, never ending connection is not anymore something to hold on, but letting go is even more hurting. The melancholic atmosphere of the song go hand in hand with the melancholic lyrics: the end is slowly becoming real, but maybe there is still time for the one last serenade?
05 MY ROUTE - lyrics by Koukonen
Maybe my personal favourite on the album. We've all had our own routes in our lives and if you ever wish you could start something all over from the beginning, then you know what I mean here with the chorus. Because if you ask me, this "I would never change a thing"-thinking is the biggest bullshit ever. Life is up's and downs, twists and turns, good and bad from better to worse and we all make mistakes. Even we always don't have the answers, we always find the way. This was the last song I did the vocals for and it has a little different approach lyrically, but I think this is something everyone can easily relate. My Route was originally recorded as a bonus track and was not suppose to be on the album, but it turned out to become such a strong song we couldn't leave it out.
06 PIECES - lyrics by Koukonen
"Pieces" is a song where love and destruction walk hand in hand. It's somewhat of a sum-up of the feelings and aftermath focused on dealing with loss. I struggled a lot with this song when trying to come up with the vocal arrangements and after all just decided to go with a really straight-forward lyrical mind-flow on the fly. It's a song that has slowly grown bigger and better and a lot of people also seem to dig it. I think it's bit of a dark horse on the album. I also absolutely love the instrumental middle-section of the song and I think this one should work very well in the setlist when played live.
07 ASK AND YOU SHALL RECEIVE - lyrics by Koukonen
I talked about science and rational thinking earlier with the previous songs and "Ask And You Shall Receive" basically maintains this very same approach lyrically. The message in summon is; if you ask for your own stupidity, you shall receive one. Of course I am no one to tell how to live your life and this one is also covered in lyrics, but sometimes it amazes me how narrow-minded the humanity can be. In my books, resisting the change simply doesn't take us anywhere. Ask And You Shall Receive was the very first song on the record I did the vocals for back in the days.
08 AUGUST - lyrics by Koukonen
"August" is a song about controversial example of bullying that can have the ultimate consequences. I will not go into details here but following the events and the aftermath of all this made me feel disgusted. We should not forget there is always a responsibility with running our mouths, no matter how strict ones opinions may be.
09 ON MY THRONE - lyrics by Koukonen
"On My Throne" is the mental playground of confusing feelings in the aftermath of love, and thematically actually pretty close to our song "Valkyrie" from the album "Where the Oceans Burn". It's really hard for me to imagine how other people really feel, but at least I've been through some fairly strong feelings and emotions in my past when it comes to this subject. There is some fascinating beauty in letting go of your strength, understanding yourself well enough in the circumstances and coming out as a better and stronger person in the end; being the king of your own emotions.
10 WHITE FEATHER - lyrics by Hyvönen
I have always been interested in last words and thoughts that people go through before the most ultimate decision in life. What would be your final statement if you were committing a suicide? White Feather" tries to interpret the emotion and moment when one sees no chance to go on anymore and the only solution is letting go forever. Even though the lyrics are hopeless and lines speak about disappointments and overwhelming emptiness in life, the main theme of the song in the end is just a request for understanding and forgiveness. The lesson learned here is, that even when someone has lost the meaning in life, the others should find it through the loss. The ones we have lost, will live make us understand the worth of life and just like white feathers, they will guide us forever.