01 - OF COURSE I STILL LOVE YOU
Music by Eero Silvonen | Lyrics by Jaredi Koukonen
of course I still love you
this house is on fire, I'm painting the walls
no goodbyes were said but so much was lost
it's in the letter, the words I created
this mess that I orchestrated
brand into shell, that's all I could do?
tear down the flow, can't defuse the truth
forget it, and bury it, can't bare it and I get it
I just lost the best of you
just did declare the death of it
just to be clear - the death of me
and the universe said no
but I just cannot let go
you know I'll be here
somewhere, somewhen
of course I still love you
changing the direction of the train
I need to fix this beating mess of my disgrace
such hurt is shed, the bloom is dead
for the second chance, don't know what's there
I touched your scars, played with your hair
I held your hands, all I could do was stare
there was nothing I could say
that could have made you stay
and how's the heart? beating there?
chance we had, guess no more there
there is something I can do
let me fix me back to you
build me back to you
because I still love you
and the universe said no
but I just cannot let go
you know I'll be here
somewhere, somewhen
it's written in the stars
I promised, there we are
and you know I'll be there
always, all of my days
you know I love you
let me fix me back to you
because I still love you
let me build me back to you
of course I still love you
02 - IN LIEU OF FLOWERS
Music by Eero Silvonen | Lyrics by Jaredi Koukonen
in lieu of flowers we grow death as a peace of mind
I hold these dreams on my own
let it run away, the serpent's on my fucking back
spit the venom into my heart to bring the doom back
at curtain call tonight I search for the exit light
like night after night, oh will we ever survive
the fucked up fire in me
needs you, the light in me
the valentine in me
wants you to reign with me
that little bite on me
wants you so dire with..
in lieu of flowers I can send myself
with the bloom of the flowers you can send me away
as above, so below
devotion and hope keep me crawling back to you
was it triggered right along when we were young?
I refused to see but the light of the sun
might've pulled a card from a pack that's full of broken hearts
might've tried too hard - no
did I ever let you know?
this fucked up mind in me
needs your sunlight within
in lieu of flowers I can send myself
with the bloom of the flowers you can send me away
as above, so below
devotion and hope keep me crawling back to you
in lieu of flowers I can send myself
with the bloom of the flowers you can send me away
as above, so below
never let go 'cuz your world holds the bloom of me
love as the death of me
love has the death of me on hold
and in lieu of these flowers
if I.. if I just let you.. go
I can send myself
with the bloom of the flowers you can send me away
as above, so below
devotion and hope keep me crawling back to you
in lieu of flowers I can send myself
with the bloom of the flowers you can send me away
as above, so below
never let go 'cuz your world holds the bloom of me
03 - FRAGILE
Music by Joni Lahdenkauppi | Lyrics by Jaredi Koukonen
dropped down from heaven with broken wings
I tried to patch you back, was named as your king
so happy ever after, or a once about a time?
all I know is you stole this heart of mine
and just dropped it
you do you but I want you to
keep in mind how I'd die for you
just drop it
you do you but I want you to
bear in mind that I'm here for you
it's undeniable
and non-survivable
how we got so far
to lose it all
the world was in our hands
I left you there to stand
alone with empty hands
when we were made out of glass
you do you but I want you to
bear in mind how I'm here for you
and acknowledge
the better in you brought in the better in me
and the best of me shall bring back the best of you
it's undeniable
and non-survivable
how we got so far
to lose it all
the world was in our hands
I left you there to stand
alone with empty hands
when we were made out of glass
so much was left unsaid, was left unspoken
those questions never asked they tore us open
but I can promise you, know that this is true
hold my hand and see me pull us through
so much was left unsaid, was left unspoken
those questions never asked they tore us open
but I can promise you, know that this is true
hold my hand and see me pull us through
it's undeniable
and non-survivable
how we got so far
to lose it all
the world was in our hands
I left you there to stand
alone with empty hands
when we were made out of glass
with tiny fragile hands
when we were made out of glass
I'm so sorry, so so sorry, I'm so sorry
it shattered, I gave no chance
when wasn't there to hold that hand
I wasn't there to hold that hand
04 - ANOMALY
Music by Eero Silvonen | Lyrics by Jaredi Koukonen
who the fuck just pulled that trigger of hell
and pushed me into this well?
why the hell did I choose to tell
I never knew those words will ring my knells
waiting for the world to clinch eternal sleep
waiting for the worst I question what is real
brace my fucking self - will I ever sleep?
tired to fight with someone else - will I ever breathe?
I've become that someone else
fighting for my dream - to become my reality
I can't change the way I feel
why can't I escape this picture in me
fucking anomaly stealing my only dream
left a knife to my reality
such a total fucking storm it's hysterical
like a psychosis, I'm starving for a miracle
what the fuck just pulled this lever of hell I wish I knew
and I know fucking nothing - will I ever sleep?
don't know bloody nothing - will I ever breathe?
don't know fucking anything
waiting for my dreams to become my reality
I can't change the way I feel
why can't I escape this picture in me
fucking anomaly stealing my only dream
left a knife to my fucking back
never bother, why pull that back?
it's such a bleat where we drown when we're down
I kinda need my anomaly
such a niche where we drown all our dreams
such keen, my anomaly
I can't change the way I feel
why can't I escape this picture in me
if things only fell into place
somehow I could find the change
I can't change the way I feel
I can't escape this prison in me
if things only fell in their place
somehow I could find my place
with a knife in my fucking back
never bother to pull that back
such a niche where we drown all our dreams
such keen, my anomaly
05 - THE SUN STILL IN ME
Music by Joni Lahdenkauppi | Lyrics by Jaredi Koukonen
back in the mids of my hurricanes
I lost the spirit, I lost the trace
another battle after battle goes on
to find the battle worth fighting for
worked, still working on
to bring the flow back, turn it on
to find the sync from the quiet place
to put our heartbeats back in phase
gone is chase, all attract
believe in change when there's no turning back
we don't chase, we attract
to put our heartbeats back on track
feel what is meant to feel, be real
breathe what is left to breathe, you'll heal
from these feelings like butterflies
that sting like a bee
you're a natural salvation
a medication for mind and soul
took a sip to know what that is
taste of kindness, makes fires lit
goddamn this feeling refuses to die
but only wants me to die inside
because in the end all I know
the sun does shine, yet all alone
gone is chase, all attract
believe in change when there's no turning back
we don't chase, we attract
to put our heartbeats back on track
feel what is meant to feel, be real
breathe what is left to breathe, you'll heal
from these feelings like butterflies
that sting like a bee
with the sun still in me
sing this!
we don't chase, we attract
bring in the change when there's no turning back
we don't chase, we attract
again with all your heart
we don't chase, we attract
bring in the change when there's no turning back
we don't chase, we attract
and give it all your fucking heart
gone is chase, all attract
believe in change when there's no turning back
if these feelings are butterflies that sting like a bee
you're the honey and flower, the sun still in me
with the sun still in me
if these feelings are butterflies that sting like a bee
you're the honey and flower, the sun still in me
again with all my heart
the sun still in me, with the sun still in my heart
if these feelings are butterflies that sting like a bee
you're the honey and flower, the sun still in me
06 - SONG OF FORGOTTEN
Music by Jose Moilanen | Lyrics by Jarkko Hyvönen
I wasted years of thinking giving in but hey I'm still here
In sickness, in health and in between I made it to another day
thank you for everyone who wished for my failure
I salute you for your endless ignorance
well look at me now and the hell I've been through
in the end you think you knew better?
who will sing with me the song of forgotten?
hum the lullaby of lost
shout out loud the song of mistreated
hand in hand with one voice to be heard
sing with me
sing and believe
sing with me
sing and believe
you will see their true colour when your wounds are cut wide open
who will throw you the rope and who'll despise you
from the top of their judgement
I'm burning the cathedral
that I built with blood on my hands
I'm spreading like wildfire
walk away with a face of revenge
who will sing with me the song of forgotten?
hum the lullaby of lost
shout out loud the song of mistreated
hand in hand with one voice to be heard
sing with me
sing and believe
shout out loud for everyone who's lost
until we are free
sing with me, sing and believe
sing with me, until we're free
sing with me, sing and believe
sing with me, and you will be free
07 - LEINA
Music by Jose Moilanen | Lyrics by Jarkko Hyvönen
"If I get to paradise before you
I'll save you a seat"
words so final
unknown is the will of almighty
there is no air left to breathe
I would give my everything
to rewrite the last verse
"the worst thing in life is not dying"
you said and wiped my tears away
"leaving behind all the ones you love instead"
were the last words you said
but here we stand forever hand in hand
whatever there may come
our halves of hearts form one
when the day comes
and your time runs out
shadows no longer suppress the light
wait for me there, where your home is in my arms
the trees are whispering your name
wind is telling me how you flew away
and here I wander in this grove of my disbelief
time has lost its urgency
place no longer has meaning to me
the unforgivable rule of life
all the good ones they always..
the morning came, you set sail
how am I supposed to..
but here we stand forever hand in hand
whatever there may come
our halves of hearts form one
when the day comes
and your time runs out
shadows no longer suppress the light
wait for me there, where your home is in my arms
home is in my arms
wait for me there where your home is in my arms
the morning came, you set sail
how am I supposed to stay
morning came, you set sail
I call your name
but here we stand forever hand in hand
whatever there may come
our halves of hearts form one
when the day comes
and your time runs out
shadows no longer suppress the light
wait for me there, where your home is in my arms
your home is in my arms
your home is in my..
I call your name in the evening
I call your name through the night
in the break of the light, 'till the end of my days
I hold the half of our hearts
08 - DEVOTION
Music by Lauri Silvonen | Lyrics by Jaredi Koukonen
at the darkest part you shine the brightest light
for someone you hold the whole world inside
dropped depression in a heartbeat
I thank you endlessly for everything
so this is for us
the cores of fire, the tender hearts
this is for us
what has become my equilibrium
what a mess made..
you showed me the light I could follow
when I lost my inner Apollo
I'm holding onto everything you said
I'm reaching for the stars where we wrote it
so somewhen we could have it all
from longing into being one
so we die ghosted?
just close our eyes from all that love?
we die ghosted?
so close to doorstep of our love?
you showed me the light I could follow
when I lost my inner Apollo
I remember every word that you wrote me
the lips of red and all devotion you showed me
from my closet full of skeletons
Discovery take me, where my dreams they belong
where my dreams they belong
where my dreams they belong
now, where my dreams they belong
don't go, never give it up
don't leave, let me light it up
we'll fight and we'll fix, we'll succumb to love
and survive the downfalls
survive the downfalls
we heal the scars tomorrow
I kept holding onto everything you said
I kept reaching for the stars where we wrote it
so somewhen we could have it all
from longing into being one
grateful for the words that you wrote me
all the compassion you showed me
somehow I just lost it all
all the equilibrium
all the equilibrium
in our devotion
09 - THE END WE START FROM
Music by Eero Silvonen | Lyrics by Jaredi Koukonen
as the dimming of our light occurred
it's me against the world with a lesson learned
burned forever underneath the rain
tore myself apart to give you all that I could give
if forgiveness somehow let me off the hook
I feel my forever would still belong to you
engraved for something so much more
I bleed for something I could not hold
but maybe all I need is patience and belief
if there's something I could do
something I could say
would you still let me know?
could you tell me so
maybe one day we could find the place
where our hearts are not supposed to break
where our hearts are not supposed to break
for the end we start from
like a miracle sun, a dedicated one
you kissed me the burden and catastrophe
I lost the trust to the process
with scars in the mindset killing all polarity
this is the end we start from
defy the loss to process
so we can trust the process
to rise back up for the better days
from the end we start from
maybe one day we could find our place
where our hearts are not supposed to..
if there's something I could do
something I could say
would you still let me know?
could you tell me so
maybe one day we could find the place
where our hearts are not supposed to break
it was really truly something so special
I was only dreaming of
I never lost those feelings, my treasure
forever I'm here waiting for
and maybe one day we could find our place
- call this loss the end we start from
10 - HOW'S THE HEART?
Music by Joni Lahdenkauppi | Lyrics by Jaredi Koukonen
how's the heart?
could you vibe beyond with me?
how's the heart?
would you sing this song with me?
stay there for a moment
stay there for my sake
takeaways, the empty streets
I see the bedroom door now slightly peek
and watch the window light up the wall like a tv
thinking - this is all just a dream
ginger shots and chocolate sweets
the real do not disturb mode on for me
where all the waterfalls and the mountains seem
so goddamn secondary next to me
how's the heart?
could you vibe beyond with me?
how's the heart?
would you sing this song with me?
stay there for a moment
stay there for my sake
the tunnels never long enough
for holding hands with a doubtful touch
I left a reservation on your bed
maybe next time was what you said
and trains and planes when they leave
leave behind our memory
where holding you so caringly
was supposed to hold the future for me
how's the heart?
could you vibe beyond with me?
how's the heart?
would you sing this song with me?
stay there for a moment
stay there for my sake
how's the heart?
could you vibe beyond with me?
how's the heart?
would you sing this song with me?
stay there for a moment
- mine once was whole
how's the heart?
- mine once was whole
when I could feel yours beat right next to me